My Edge!

  What do you think about bold red lips and exaggerated black eyeliner?


   If you know me well, you'll know that I'm a huge fan of red lips and black eyeliner. But this kind of make up is still not so common in Asia, youngster may accept but not elderly. Once I put on superb red lipstick in my home country, Malaysia, while hanging out with my BFF, lots of people looked at me with "weird eyes". WTH, I don't care!


   I never love wearing contact lenses, as they make my eyes dry and uncomfortable. And I got no problem with my small pupils, so why needing them? A black and thick eyeliner will highlight my tiny and fine eyes, and yet looks edgy and keen. I may not have big round beautiful eyes or pretty & deep features like other girls, and so what? As long as I know the way to rock my features, and bring out their beauty. 


   While comes to lips colour, red or any bright colours will be my first choice. 
The reasons why I love red lips:
1. Bright colour will lighten you teeth colour (especially for those who has yellowish teeth like me)
2. Red lips colour suits every skin tone, and will also brighten our skin colour.
3. Bright lips colour may make your lip looks fuller.
4. Bright colour will brings extra intensity to your look.


   Makeup is like a painting, the difference is it's done on our face instead on a paper or any object. No matter what makeup you put on, you have to be confident while wearing them, as you are the one who wearing makeup, not makeup wearing you! 






Loves,

A day in Gynaecology Department

   For those who close with me, will know that I'm fighting for the tumors which is "located" at both side of my ovary. And end of last year, the report came out and it told me that they growth, 1cm larger than usual, I dare not to tell my family and any of friends (besides, few of them who are really close to me), as I do not want them to be worry.

   And, YEAY! It's finally a great news today! 

   An idea just suddenly pop out this morning, I grab my friend and said, hey, I wanna go for a check up today! He said yes, and so I directly head up to the hospital after class.

   The doctor did an ultra sound, and said they shrink and my ovary's will function normally! BUT, he said my hormone is imbalance, so I have to take a blood test to make sure everything is okay! So, I have to wait till next Monday to get the final report! YEAY again, haha! This is the greatest new I heard these months!

   I getting well maybe because of my healthy diet (nonsense!) and my healthy lifestyle (bullshit!). But I did exercise all these days, I swim I cycling I bowl and I even try out something I never try before!

   I'm super super happy now, and I want to say few thanks to those I love.

TC, thanks for praying for me all the while!

AiiSeanx, thanks for your caring and cheering!

Chiawen Ponneey YeeThing, there of you are like my super BBF since high school, thanks for being with me all the while since then!

TerEarn, you are the one who drive me here and there for my medic.

ChiaWei, you are the very 1st friend I make and the very 1st friend that bring me out for travel and lunch & etc.

MinHan, thanks for your support these years!

Miki, my 1st BFF in Taiwan! And I love you, thank you for be with me and support me. Even share my happiness and sadness!

Keith & Brian, I'm so glad to have you as buddy, you both are like my sister and brother. I will never wish to lose you both. All these years, although we do not meet up, you both still care for me, show your love to me. I appreciate it. Thanks a lot! Muaks!

MUMMMYYYY! I want to give you a big hug and kiss, I know you worry about me for years, now, I'm finally okay! Mum, I love you!

   There are still tons of thanks that I would love to say, I apologize that I couldn't list out every single name. I'll always keep your love in my heart! Thank you so much for caring me!

   I'm a tough girl, and will always be. I will love myself, and of course, YOU ALL!

   

Loves,

Dear Mama

Dear Mama,


   You are the greatest woman I ever met, You are the prettiest lady in this world. You are the one and only for me.
   Mum, I love you, from the day I born, till now, tomorrow and ever.


   When I was 5, you and papa bring me to kindergarten. I was so afraid, but your kiss give me strength.
   When I was 7, I start my primary education, you accompany me to school. You were so worried that I couldn't blend in with others. But mum, I did it, and I make a lot of good friends.
   When I was 8, we have a big fight, I ran away from home and hang out & walking around the park. You immediate chase out and look for me, you seem nervous and worry. I can see tears in your eyes.
   When I was 13, I said, mum, why don't I look pretty as you? You hug me and answered, but you are the prettiest daughter of me. No matter how you look, if you are confident enough, you will look pretty.
   When I was 17, I have a big show to perform in school, you sewed my dance dress for me.
   When I was 18, I went for airline interview with friends. I know nothing about make up, I know nothing about feminine. But you said, it doesn't matter, my confidence will melt their heart. And actually the interviewers do love my personality.
   When I was 19, I was preparing to further my study. But your body check up report said you might have womb cancer. That day was like the end of the world for me, I was so worry and sad, I'm so afraid that you will leave me one day. So I called and canceled my admission. Actually it was a misunderstand, OMG! 
   When I was 20, I'm about leaving to Taiwan. You feel so sad and sorry for me, you said, we are not wealthy, our finance is so tight, you got no extra money for me, and I have to work and earn money to support my life and school fees.
   
   I never blame that you couldn't financially support me, because of this I learn to be more independent, I gain my confidence. I know how to survive when I'm alone. You have work so hard to support our family. Since papa is sick and couldn't work, you are the only one who work and earn, and even work harder. I remember that when I was 16, you cry, and my heart drop. I know that you feel pressure and insecure, we brother and sisters were still young and study, our expenses were so high that time. You can't even afford to pay all our school fees. And so I start doing part-time job to support my school fees. Mum, don't blame yourself that you couldn't give us the best, you had and you have. You are the greatest gift of my life, your teaching I will bring it along with me like a shadow of mine.


   When I first found out that I have tumors in my ovarian, you are so shock and worry, and even shake. At that moment I can feel your heart break, I can feel your fear. But, mum, I'm afraid too. I be brave because I have you. Every time, I in pain, you are the best pain killer, your love is my best sedative.


   You are the one that always give me positive energy, no matter I fail in exam or competition, argue or break up with my partner, you always stand besides me. You are not just a mother for me, you are also my bff and sister to me.
  
   Mum, I knew that I never was a good behavior kid, I never was your greatest and  smartest daughter. I cannot give you the best now, but I will. I will give the best of mine.


   Mummy, I love you. Happy Mother's Day!





LOVEs,

A letter to those I care for: 3 Years in Taiwan

My dear friend,


As you know, I'm a uptown girl who know nothing, and obviously I seem to be a crazy girl to you. But if you know me well, you'll know that I am an ordinary girl who is full of passion and fire! I have dreams to chase for and I have targets to go for. 


I may be a failure today, but not tomorrow. 
I may cry when I fall, but I'll wipe off my tears and head up the next second. 
I will be fear when facing challenges and tasks, but I'll turn into fierce when they are in front of me.
I may be jealous, mad, sorrow, low self-esteem or insane, because I'm human, but I dare to show you my true colour.


I be these brave because I have you, my dear friends who I love.


I may not be perfect, but what I been through and what I learn from the past, make me a better person. 


I broke up with my ex boyfriend twice(or maybe more), I learn to be strong from it
Two of my friends passed away, I learn to cherish who and what I have.
I have tumors and dare not to face them, and because of you all, I have courage to fight them.
I have no dollars in my pocket when I first come to Taiwan, I learn to survive in harsh time.
I fell, hurt and bruise, but I head up and keep chasing what I fighting for, again.
I shake and nervous when I giving presentation, speech and performance, because of the courage you all give me, I over come it and done with flying colours.


What I gain in these years is more than money and knowledge, I gain courage, friendship, trust and a better me. The most important is, I have YOU!


Thank you my friends, for holding my hand and go through all the difficulties with me. Thanks for the physically and mentally supports from you. Without you, I will not come these far.


I love you, you all will always be in my heart, from the day we met, till today, tomorrow and forever. 






Loves,