Dear Mama

Dear Mama,


   You are the greatest woman I ever met, You are the prettiest lady in this world. You are the one and only for me.
   Mum, I love you, from the day I born, till now, tomorrow and ever.


   When I was 5, you and papa bring me to kindergarten. I was so afraid, but your kiss give me strength.
   When I was 7, I start my primary education, you accompany me to school. You were so worried that I couldn't blend in with others. But mum, I did it, and I make a lot of good friends.
   When I was 8, we have a big fight, I ran away from home and hang out & walking around the park. You immediate chase out and look for me, you seem nervous and worry. I can see tears in your eyes.
   When I was 13, I said, mum, why don't I look pretty as you? You hug me and answered, but you are the prettiest daughter of me. No matter how you look, if you are confident enough, you will look pretty.
   When I was 17, I have a big show to perform in school, you sewed my dance dress for me.
   When I was 18, I went for airline interview with friends. I know nothing about make up, I know nothing about feminine. But you said, it doesn't matter, my confidence will melt their heart. And actually the interviewers do love my personality.
   When I was 19, I was preparing to further my study. But your body check up report said you might have womb cancer. That day was like the end of the world for me, I was so worry and sad, I'm so afraid that you will leave me one day. So I called and canceled my admission. Actually it was a misunderstand, OMG! 
   When I was 20, I'm about leaving to Taiwan. You feel so sad and sorry for me, you said, we are not wealthy, our finance is so tight, you got no extra money for me, and I have to work and earn money to support my life and school fees.
   
   I never blame that you couldn't financially support me, because of this I learn to be more independent, I gain my confidence. I know how to survive when I'm alone. You have work so hard to support our family. Since papa is sick and couldn't work, you are the only one who work and earn, and even work harder. I remember that when I was 16, you cry, and my heart drop. I know that you feel pressure and insecure, we brother and sisters were still young and study, our expenses were so high that time. You can't even afford to pay all our school fees. And so I start doing part-time job to support my school fees. Mum, don't blame yourself that you couldn't give us the best, you had and you have. You are the greatest gift of my life, your teaching I will bring it along with me like a shadow of mine.


   When I first found out that I have tumors in my ovarian, you are so shock and worry, and even shake. At that moment I can feel your heart break, I can feel your fear. But, mum, I'm afraid too. I be brave because I have you. Every time, I in pain, you are the best pain killer, your love is my best sedative.


   You are the one that always give me positive energy, no matter I fail in exam or competition, argue or break up with my partner, you always stand besides me. You are not just a mother for me, you are also my bff and sister to me.
  
   Mum, I knew that I never was a good behavior kid, I never was your greatest and  smartest daughter. I cannot give you the best now, but I will. I will give the best of mine.


   Mummy, I love you. Happy Mother's Day!





LOVEs,

A letter to those I care for: 3 Years in Taiwan

My dear friend,


As you know, I'm a uptown girl who know nothing, and obviously I seem to be a crazy girl to you. But if you know me well, you'll know that I am an ordinary girl who is full of passion and fire! I have dreams to chase for and I have targets to go for. 


I may be a failure today, but not tomorrow. 
I may cry when I fall, but I'll wipe off my tears and head up the next second. 
I will be fear when facing challenges and tasks, but I'll turn into fierce when they are in front of me.
I may be jealous, mad, sorrow, low self-esteem or insane, because I'm human, but I dare to show you my true colour.


I be these brave because I have you, my dear friends who I love.


I may not be perfect, but what I been through and what I learn from the past, make me a better person. 


I broke up with my ex boyfriend twice(or maybe more), I learn to be strong from it
Two of my friends passed away, I learn to cherish who and what I have.
I have tumors and dare not to face them, and because of you all, I have courage to fight them.
I have no dollars in my pocket when I first come to Taiwan, I learn to survive in harsh time.
I fell, hurt and bruise, but I head up and keep chasing what I fighting for, again.
I shake and nervous when I giving presentation, speech and performance, because of the courage you all give me, I over come it and done with flying colours.


What I gain in these years is more than money and knowledge, I gain courage, friendship, trust and a better me. The most important is, I have YOU!


Thank you my friends, for holding my hand and go through all the difficulties with me. Thanks for the physically and mentally supports from you. Without you, I will not come these far.


I love you, you all will always be in my heart, from the day we met, till today, tomorrow and forever. 






Loves,

Coffee Talk #4: Happiness

   Few of my friends always ask, how can you be so happy and cheerful? Every time I see you, you have your big and wide smile with you. Share with me, how?

   Actually there are no secret to be happy. 

   I am happy every single moment, if I'm not, I'll try to make myself happy. Because I believe that being happy is like a positive energy to run our life, carrier or even relationship with others. While you are happy, you'll find out that it's much more easier for us to have our problems solve and settle.

   I am a person who love to laugh, being funny and fierce. I never care how other judge me, you may say I'm crazy, hilarious or insane. Even you judge or say it right in front of me, but this is who I am, I never afraid to be me and show you the real me! Oh, by the way, why not stop judging and feel my energy? Watch me, you'll surprised by me.

   Sometimes, when we hold some thing which is not belong to us, it may brings pressure and uncomfiness. So, why not just let it go. For example, you love a guy who do not love you, and you force him to be with you, at the same time, you feel unsecured and afraid that he will leave you one day. Why make yourself so pity and sad? I understand that it might be so difficult for you to give up the one you love or a thing that you really want! But I gotta tell you, I had been through all these, I can understand the hard feeling. But trust me, you will feel free when you let go. 

   Never hold yourself back, and remember to set your mind free! Fulfill your dream as long as you can, dare to pursue your wish. What I mean is don't let yourself regret of something. No matter what is right or what is wrong, just do it if you feel that it worth! Stand up again and again while you face failure. 

Be open heart • Be yourself • Never hold yourself back • Set your mind free • Be satisfy!

   Others may feel unsure about you, but you can never suspect and unconfirmed about who you are! Just be yourself, set yourself free! Being happy is all about be yourself.

Loves,

Spring Break (#2) : 8.4.2012

ALOHA, friends!


   I went to Hou-Feng Bikeway in Taichung on my last day of Spring break! It's my second time to visit this awesome place, I am so so so lov'in it! 

   We have more than 30 people (I think) in this trip, seems like a huge troop huh?! (Bottom 1st picture) He is our all day photographer, super big thanks for taking fabulous pictures of us!

   We do love to take silly picture, funny and awkward, our all time favourite, never change!

   We are DREAMERS! We do have dreams! We have passion to fight for what we want! (HAHA, LOL)

   Took this picture in front of the Hakka Cultural Museum! We got stamps all over our arms, thighs and even on the face!

     We stop for breaks all along! AND WE NEVER FORGET TO SNAP SNAP SNAP! 

   Barbecue for lunch! 

   Rabbits and Ponies! They were attract by carrots, some of the bunnies jump onto my lap to snatch the carrots! They are awesomely cute! The little pony is cute too! And yes, he love carrot too!

   We played archery during our break time! My very first time, I wanted to play but never have chance. I got 5 out of 20 arrows hit the flak! The instructor said it was a great start for a beginner! I'm so proud of myself, hah!

   Our third stop, at ShihKang Dams & 921 Earthquake Park. Non stop posing and picture taking!

      I do not know what tree is that, I just simply feel it's so pretty, so snap again!

   I was so relax and happy all day long, the view is pretty, the air is fresh and the weather is awesome! This trip really recharge my energy and make me feel it was a bless for me.

   I'm glad to have all these buddy with me, in Taiwan. They care for me, they share happiness and they bring joy! Although we do not stick together so often, but yet we feel so close when we meet each other!

   Life is short, don't waste your time on anger and sorrow, enjoy your life, open your heart to those who care for you, be happy and joyful.

Life is something that everyone should try at least once.

-By Henry J. Tillman

Loves,

Chris ❤

Spring Break (#1)

Aloha, friends!


   Spring break has just over!! I had done tons of fun and silly thing during my one week holiday, and I had tried what I never tried before!

   Yeay ❤ New shoes in the house! Finally I got myself a new pair of RED heels, and it's my highest heel I ever owned, more than 4 inches I think. Both in brown colour is my all time favourite heel (left: wedge, right:2 inches heels). Both are so comfy to wear, I can even run with them on. 

   I never bowl since junior high, because me and my friends had an awkward and embarrassed moment, and I never bowl since then. Me and my friends continuous bowled for 5 days, start from our 1st day of Spring break, sounds crazy huh?! My lucky 7 brings me luck to strike! Having lots of fun with them, love hanging out with them! And a big thank to my brother senior, Xin Wei, for teaching me!

   It's all about the PEACE! I purposely took this kind of silly pictures with them, as some of them will be graduate soon! LOVE Y'ALL! I sure will be lonely if they leave.

   I'm looking forward to take some awesome and special pictures these days. I keep on trying and trying, and these two coming out! LOVE IT! The red lips is my favourite!

   My holiday was fabulous, what about yours?

Life is full of surprises and serendipity. Being open to unexpected turns in the road is an important part of success. If you try to plan every step, you may miss those wonderful twists and turns. Just find your next adventure-do it well, enjoy it-and then, not now, think about what comes next.

-By Condoleeza Rice

Loves,

Chris ❤